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Tuesday, September 30th, 2008
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1:47 am
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Today was not a good day.
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| Wednesday, July 30th, 2008
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8:43 am
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I'm 19 today. Tomorrow I won't be.
It's hard for me to believe that my teenage years are almost over. I'm trying to have a good time on my final day.
I'm picking up a new friend today. More news about him later. ;)
current mood:  excited
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| Saturday, June 28th, 2008
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2:06 pm
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Yayayayayay, Erik's coming to visit tonight! :D
Also, I lost 4 more pounds. wuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut
lol I suck at updating this thing
current mood: excited
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| Sunday, May 18th, 2008
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1:01 pm
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New city, new place to live, new computer, new driver's license, new car, new school, new LIFE.
Also, no more back pain.
:)
current mood:  hopeful
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| Wednesday, April 16th, 2008
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12:12 pm
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Man, I never update this thing. I suck. Anyway, what's been going on lately...
Erik's birthday was last Thursday. We went to the fair and had a good time. One of the rides was playing Basshunter songs, what the crap?! Well, there were a lot of European guys working the rides, so I guess that explains it. One of the shows involved a guy hugging a shark! I want to hug a shark! Also, after the fair, we had a cookies and cream pie-cake thing from TCBY. Mmmmmmmmmm mmmmmmm!
I've been rushing to get the rest of my school work done before the semester is over. Erik's been helping me out majorly with this. <3 After I finish up everything for my Photoshop class, which is all due tomorrow, I'll just have a couple of pictures left to do for my drawing class (as well as touch-ups on older pictures), and hopefully those won't be too tough to do. Maybe I'll actually have a little time to study for my dang exams between all of this! @_@ These stupid non-art classes are getting in the way of what's important!
Other than a little stress, I'm doing pretty well. I'll be moving to Orlando very soon, and I have mixed feelings about it. I know I'm going to love it there, since I have lots of family in the area, as well as some friends (I think...), and I can't wait to get out of the crap hole I'm living in now. It's going to be tough to be away from Erik, though. He's the only person I've spent time with for almost 2 years now, and I don't know how long we'll have to be apart (not counting visits, of course). It won't be easy.
Also, I don't think I have the ability to make friends anymore. During my two years at FIU, Erik is the only friend I've had. I haven't even become friends with the girls I was forced to live with in the dorms. Maybe the people here just suck (which is partially true), but I know it's mostly me. I really don't know what happened. I used to be so outgoing, and I'd make new friends all the time. I don't feel like I've lost my friendliness, but I'm pretty much alone constantly unless I'm hanging out with Erik. It feels like my old friends don't even care much about me anymore, besides Joe, Christina, Sean, AND OF COURSE, ALAN (HOW COULD I FORGET HIM, BAD JONNA :O). I guess I'm just hoping I won't be too lonely in Orlando. I'm tired of being unwillingly anti-social.
I feel pretty uncertain about my future, but I know I'll be okay.
current mood:  calm
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| Monday, April 7th, 2008
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6:37 pm
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I'm beginning to think that I have ADD.
It would certainly explain a lot of things.
current mood:  frustrated
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| Wednesday, March 12th, 2008
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3:30 am
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Dear Lord,
Please help us get through this tough time.
Amen.
current mood:  distressed
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| Monday, March 3rd, 2008
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2:41 am - McRoll
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Most people have probably seen this already, but I felt like sharing anyway.
I make a point to watch this at least once a day. You should, too.
current mood:  sleepy
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| Monday, January 21st, 2008
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8:53 pm
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Well, just like I thought, it seems that this semester of school is going to be a LOT more enjoyable than the last semester was. I've had class for two weeks now, and I'm really enjoying them so far.
For once, I actually have a schedule full of fun, interesting and/or easy classes, so I don't think I'll be loaded down with a bunch of schoolwork that'll be a chore to complete. I'm taking a drawing class, and I think it's really going to help me out, art-wise. It's only been two weeks, and I already feel like I've learned some new things. I'm also taking a Photoshop class, and it's ridiculously easy. I honestly feel like I know more about Photoshop than the professor does.
The rest of the classes aren't anything to shout about, but they're interesting enough in their own right. I'm very happy with my schedule.
Life's really looking up, compared to how it was last semester. I'm so glad that time is over.
current mood: content
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| Wednesday, January 9th, 2008
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1:31 am
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Christmas break was nice, it was great to see a bunch of family members I haven't seen in ages, I enjoyed spending time with my parents and Erik, we spotted Carrot Top at a Panera in Orlando, and now I'm starting the new semester, and my classes seem like they'll be really enjoyable (for once).
That's just about everything in a nutshell.
current mood: calm
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| Sunday, December 23rd, 2007
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5:02 pm - Blehhh
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| Sunday, November 25th, 2007
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2:15 am
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Well, this is what I did with my Thanksgiving break.
I know Kimberly looks FRICKIN' HUGE, and I really have no idea why that happened. :P
They were so fun to make! I still can't believe that I found Power Rangers cookie cutters.
current mood: relaxed
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| Thursday, November 22nd, 2007
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1:46 am
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Well, I arrived in Key West tonight, to spend some time with my parents for Thanksgiving break. We have a lot of cool stuff planned, and it sounds like it'll be a lot of fun. I definitely need this break from my horrible dorm, although I do miss Erik.
It will never feel the same here again without my little girl, but I'm not as sad anymore. I feel so happy whenever I reminisce about all the wonderful memories with her. She may not be here physically, but she'll always be with me in spirit.
Tonight, I took all the photos of Lantz that my mom had on her computer (145 of them) and copied them onto mine. It makes me so happy that I have all these beautiful pictures of her.
Overall, I'm pretty happy right now. I hope that everyone else has a really great Thanksgiving!
current mood:  nostalgic
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| Friday, October 12th, 2007
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10:23 pm
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The last picture of Lantz and I that was ever taken:
It even has a heavenly glow... It's almost like it was a sign for Lantz.
Please excuse my chubbiness, I've lost 25 pounds since then.
I had been hoping to take a nice, new picture with Lantz, since I've lost a bunch of weight and I look better now. That obviously won't be happening.
I sure do miss her...
current mood:  indescribable
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| Monday, October 8th, 2007
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2:20 am
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It's been a bit over a month since my little girl left this world, and yet I still have a hard time not crying myself to sleep each night. I don't know why I'm so sad, I know that I'll be seeing her again some day. I guess it's the wait that's hard. I always imagined that more of my earthly existence would be spent with her, and it feels like it was cut short. She is so special to me, and it's so hard not having that special part of my life anymore. Every single day, my mind retrieves memories of her that were long ago tucked away into my brain. I hope to always keep these memories with me, until I see her again.
I just don't want her to ever be forgotten.
current mood: indescribable
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| Tuesday, September 4th, 2007
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5:52 pm
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My sweet baby girl.... My sweet little Lantz... I wasn't expecting this day to come for a long time.
We haven't been able to see each other very much lately, with me being in college and you at home with mama and daddy. I know that daddy has been taking wonderful care of you while I've been gone, though.
I'm so happy that I got to spend this last Summer with you. It was a joy each day to see your cute little face bobbing at me as I ate my meals. You have been such a little blessing to have. I wish I had spent more time holding you and taking you out over this Summer, though. If I had only known...
I had always dreamed of the day when I would live on my own, no longer in a college dorm, and I would take you back from my parents and care for you myself. I am sad that I can no longer look forward to that. I miss sleeping with you in my bed. You are such a wonderful little sleeping buddy, and I always loved to curl up to you and keep you warm with my body heat.
My beautiful little girl, you're so precious to me. You added something special to my life that I wouldn't have been able to get from anywhere else. You are my best friend. You were always there for me to pick up and pet whenever I was feeling down and needed comfort, and couldn't find it anywhere else. You always helped to make me feel better, and I appreciate it so much. Thank you, my dear.
You brought so many laughs and smiles to the family. You were always doing such cute little things, whether it was bobbing at your own reflection in the mirror, crawling up our legs, hopping on us, scratching at the back door to try to get in the house, or just getting yourself into mischief. You were always so cute when you licked at people and objects to see what they were. You are the cutest thing that ever lived, and nothing else could possibly come close.
I have countless memories of all the good times we've shared together. I am going to cherish these memories for as long as I live. I know you were always a very happy girl, and in turn, you brought happiness to all of us.
My teenage years wouldn't have been the same without you. My LIFE wouldn't have been the same without you. You have made such an impact on me, and your spirit is going to continue to live on in my heart. You are more than just a pet iguana to me. You are my baby girl, and the love of my life.
I love you so much, Lantz. Rest in peace, my little angel. We're going to be reunited again some day, and I'm going to miss you with all of my heart until then.
Lantzera "Lantz" Lybrand
07/04/1999 - 09/04/2007
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2:21 am
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I'm sick of this...
current mood:  disappointed
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| Monday, September 3rd, 2007
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11:36 am
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Well, I've been laying down almost constantly since Thursday, trying to recover from this spinal fluid problem. Erik's been taking such good care of me. I'm not sure if the problem is gone or not yet, as I'm too nervous to get up and see how I feel. If I haven't recovered yet, then getting up could mess things up and set me back even longer. The thing is, tonight and tomorrow, Erik and I are supposed to go out for our one year anniversary, and I REALLY don't want to have to reschedule that. :( I've been looking forward to it so much.
This has not been a fun way to start the new school year. I'm really looking forward to feeling normal again.
AT LEAST MY BACK'S NOT HURTING, LOOOLLLLOOLLLOOLOOLOLOL
current mood:  worried
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| Thursday, August 30th, 2007
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9:48 pm
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Crap, I have a spinal fluid leak!
The first week of school and I already have to skip class!
current mood:  bored
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| Wednesday, August 29th, 2007
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12:31 pm
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Graaaaahhhhh HEADACHES AHHHHHHHHHH
School's going fine so far. I just need to get rid of these darn headaches.
I've lost about 20 pounds. 10 to go!
current mood: calm
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